A Celebration and a Baptism

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Our story in a nutshell, but it’s so much more.

We had a beautiful celebratory Father’s Day weekend.  A first, for us!  Saturday we had a “Welcome Home” party in lieu of  a shower for our little miracle, our gift from God.  We are overwhelmed by the love and support people continue to give us as well as their presence at these events.  We are so blessed.

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Another mommy calming the wee one!

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Enjoying the festivities…as long as he’s constantly fed!  It truly amazes me how much this guy eats!  His favorite is still Mommy’s milk!  By the way, breastfeeders to be…I love these bottles!  They’re great for transitioning back and forth from bottle to boob or boob to bottle!

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Preparing for his baptism…

Come to me come, let the little children come.  Come and receive the kingdom of God.

May all of you find the blessings and promises of God as I have this first Father’s Day weekend.

We’ve made it to 4 months!!!

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As of today, Jonathan is officially 4 months old (actually) and 1 month old (corrected gestational age).  He is weighing 7lb, 10oz!!!!  It’s so exciting to see him grow.

He’s slowly but surely getting better with the colic.  As the pediatrician recommended, we started him on probiotics (Gerber Soothe), and we do think it’s helping.  I don’t know what I would do without the baby carrier, rocking chair, and the occasional glass of wine!  Yes, I’m breastfeeding and everyone has said it’s ok!  Don’t pump and dump.  Have an occasional glass of wine.  The most exciting thing lately is that Jonathan has finally figured out how to nurse laying down, so I don’t have to fully wake myself up at night anymore!   I put him in bed with me, put the boob out nearby and he does the rest!  I’m so glad I didn’t give up on it!!!

For now, we are in the midst of planning a Welcome Home party (since we never had a chance to have a shower) and his christening, so more pictures will follow this month.  We are so blessed.  Thank you all for your encouragement and keeping us in your thoughts and prayers!

Blessings Galore!

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On our 4th Wedding Anniversary, we celebrate…

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…the homecoming of our first born! Welcome Home Baby Jonathan!

It’s been a rocky road to get here, but here we are so very blessed… not only to have each other, but to have the gift of you as well.  We started here…

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Then you came 3 months early because Mommy became sick with HELLP Syndrome

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and here we are…

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Sometimes a picture IS worth more than words…

Happy Easter

Alleluia! Christ is Risen!
Christ us risen, indeed! Alleluia!

What does Easter mean to all of you?  For me, Easter is a time of overcoming…of a battle won…of new life.  These are promises of Easter that many turn to for comfort during difficult times.  I know that I do.

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Jonathan’s 1st Easter was spent in the NICU, but we tried to make it celebratory anyway!  He is now 4lb, 7oz!  What a BIG boy!  This is my reminder of the life of Easter.  I am so grateful for all of the love and support from family, friends, and neighbors.  It truly does take a village!

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In his Easter bonnet, thanks to SaraAnn’s Homespun What Knots!  Right now, we are working on feeding and weaning his oxygen…that’s all he has to do to get home!  Please send prayers for this little guy!

Valleys

It’s in the valleys I grow

Sometimes life seems hard to bear,
full of sorrow, trouble and woe.
It’s then I have to remember
that it’s in the valleys I grow

If I always stayed on the mountain top
and never experienced pain,
I would never appreciate God’s love
and would be living in vain

I have so much to learn
and my growth is very slow,
sometimes I need the mountain tops
But it’s in the valleys I grow

I do not always understand,
why things happen as they do.
But I am very sure of one thing,
My Lord will see me through

My little valleys are nothing
when I picture Christ on the cross
He went through the valley of death,
His victory was Satan’s loss.

Forgive me Lord, for complaining
when I’m feeling so very low.
Just give me a gentle reminder
that it’s in the valleys I grow.

continue to strengthen me, Lord.
and use my life each day
to share your love with others
and help them find their way.

Thank you for valleys, Lord
for this one thing I know
the mountain tops are glorious
But it’s in the valleys I grow.

By:Jane Eggleston

I’ve been thinking a lot about valleys.  After all, it is lent.  I am reminded of last years lent as we were going through our fertility treatments and I was asked to sing the Exultet at our Easter Vigil service (as we had no deacon).  I will refer to a post from last year, And the Journey rolls on…  I feel as though I am coming full circle.  Somehow God always makes his presence known in reminders such as these.  So, this Lent we walk through another valley…I grow, my son grows, my husband grows…we grow together.  But boy…do I see the light Easter right around the corner.  The light of Christ.  Thanks be to God.  Rejoice heavenly hosts and choirs of angels, for the victory of our Mighty King.  Darkness has been vanquished (from the Exultet). 

How loved am I?  So, so, so loved.  I can not express the overflowing love I feel for the little one I spend all of my days with..that God has an even greater love for me, for my family just overwhelms and brings me such great joy and security.  It seems Lent is my time to grow, to hang on to the holy, to feel the holy.  I feel it every time I hold my precious little miracle.  Thank you, God.

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P.S. I’m 3 pounds!!!

Wow, sometimes the world just spins!

Dear Friends,

I’m sorry it’s been so long since I’ve posted a blog or been on line to check in with all of you.  As many of you know after struggling with infertility for quite some time, we were finally able to achieve pregnancy with IVF.  As happy as we were with the pregnancy, it was difficult for me to write about it, with so many I knew struggling with infertility still.  It still hurts that there are so many great moms and dads out there who are just waiting to fill their arms.

In that light, I thought I should share that my world changed in February.  I got very sick with HELLP syndrome rather quickly and they had to deliver the baby very early.  I was 27weeks 4days.  My baby boy came in to the world weighing 1lb 15oz. by emergent C-section.  I was so sick, I wasn’t able to see him until day 3.

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I cried when I finally saw him for the first time.  In fear, in relief, but mostly…in hope.  My beautiful church, CHN, held a Prayer Vigil 2 days after he was born…

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I wasn’t able to attend as sick as I was in the hospital, but my mom and sweet husband were able to, and brought back the bulletin so that I could read it.  Our beautiful Rev. Liz wrote a lovely prayer that still brings tears to my eyes:

“Gracious and all knowing God, We pray for your abundant blessings on this little newborn, Jonathan.  We look at this tiny baby and by faith we see:  Soft little ears that will one day hear and receive the message of God’s love and grace.  Precious little fingers that will one day reach out with acts of kindness to the world.  Cute little feet with tiny little toes that will one day bring blessings to the world.  Lord, we also see a tender tiny heart and tender tiny lungs.  We lift him to you, Lord God, and pray that you will sustain him in these very early days.  May this child always have an open heart to you and to your word, and may he grow up sure in the knowledge of your love and presence, all the days of his life.  All these things we pray through our Lord Jesus Christ.  Amen.”

Today, my little preemie is 31 weeks 1day (we go by gestational age when they are preemies).  He is now weighing in at 1050gm or 2.5lb.  Almost all of those tubes you see have been discontinued.  We are working on helping him grow.  I’d like to ask for prayers for continued progress.

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One Lovely Blog Award

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I’d like to say Thank You very much to My Perfect Breakdown, Waiting for Baby Bird, and While We Wait for the nomination of One Lovely Blog Award.  What a pleasant surprise!  This is a first for me, and to add to it, there’s not one, but 3 nominations for the award.  Thanks so much for all of your encouragement!

The rules for winning this award are very simple, here they are: 

1.  Thank the person who has nominated you and provide a link to his/her blog.

2.  List the rules.

3.  Include 7 facts about yourself.

4.  Nominate 15 other bloggers and let them know that they have been nominated.

5.  Display the award logo and follow the blogger who nominated you.

Here are 7 facts about me:

1.  When people ask of my heritage I tell them I’m human mutt.  When you have 2 different parents from melting pots, but in different parts of the globe, I really am.  Asian & White.

2.  I’m a musician.  I started singing before I could talk and performed in front of the church as a soloist for the first time when I was 4 years old.  That was “Jesus Loves Me.”  I’ve now advanced to singing more complex pieces of music.  My favorite is baroque.

3.  I love to read.  While on vacation, I often bring 8 books (thank goodness e-books exist now) and then need to buy more because I finished them all.

4.  I take lots…I mean LOTS of pictures.  It was once said that when I switched to digital, Kodak would go out of business.

5.  Someday I’d like to finish my work in becoming a Music Thanatologist.  I feel as though this is a calling for me and the perfect way for the musician and nurse in me to join skills.

6.  I love to travel and see new things that are old.  I use travel therapy to prevent burn out, which has a high incidence in my field of work.

7.  I feel close to God in nature and simple things.

Here are some, but not all of the blogs that I find lovely and would like to nominate for the Lovey Blog Award!

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THE CHRONICLES OF THE UNFRUITFULNESS

Eventual Momma

Ever Upward

Every Little Thing’s Gonna Be Alright

HOPE ANCHORS THE SOUL

INFERTILITY, WHY ME?

It Is Well With My Soul

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The Mom in Me, MD

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Our eggs and a plumber

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Tales from the Laundry Room

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I’m looking forward to getting to know you all more!  Please know that there is no pressure, but I wanted to let you all know how much I enjoy your blogs!

Happy Anniversary to a very Special Couple!

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Happy Anniversary Kat & Kirk!

It’s a milestone!  At least in my book it is.  The happy couple has been married for 5 years today!  I just wanted to wish my sister and brother-in-law many more years of happiness.  These two have been through so much together and are always there for each other picking each other up on bad days and cheering each other on in the good.  A beautiful example of love and friendship!  I love you both and wish we lived closer so we could celebrate together!

“As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you.  Now remain in my love.  If you obey my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have obeyed my Father’s commands and remain in his love.  I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete.  My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you.  Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.  You are my friends if you do what I command.  I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business.  Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you.  You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit – fruit that will last.  Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name.  This is my command: Love each other.”   John 15: 9-17 (NIV)

The Great Reveal

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Well, I am blessed!  Yes, I’m pregnant.  I know as you’re seeing this picture, you probably realize I’ve known for a little while.  I’ve honestly not been able to relax until 1.)  I knew the baby was in my uterus.  2.)  I saw a heartbeat.  Call it the nurse in me.  Call it my grief at the recent miscarriage.  Call it fear.  But alas, God is good.  I heeded where he was guiding me and here we are.  I pray that I am able to sustain this pregnancy.  This is from yesterday at exactly 6 weeks.  Baby had a heart rate of 114.  Yippee!  I guess God knew exactly what I needed.

Can I just say…I AM SO HUNGRY ALL OF THE TIME!  That so far is my big pregnancy symptom.  I don’t seem to ever be satisfied.  Wow.  I don’t think I’ve ever been this hungry, this often.  I’ve always had a good appetite, but sheesh!

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If you look really closely, you can see the head and fetal pole.  So exciting!  Thank you all so much for your prayers.  They mean so much to me.  We have nicknamed the baby “Parasite” because of my hunger…ha ha ha.  I guess my fur baby was right!  I really was pregnant when he peed on my belly after the embryo transfer!  Happy Friday!

No, I just can’t forget…

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Jonathan  9.11.1977 – 8.10.1988

Who?  I’d like you to meet my brother, Jonathan.  He would have been 37 years old today.  Born in Bitburg, Germany on Bitburg Air Base, and died in Maywood, IL and Loyola University Medical Center.  My brother died tragically while riding bikes with 2 other friends.  He was hit by a car and sustained injuries that took his life.  In his death, he was able to give others life by donating organs.  Hope in the midst of absolute tragedy, devastation, and loss.  We still miss him everyday, but on days like today, he is in the forefront of our minds.  Happy Birthday little brother.  I can’t wait to see you again in the clouds.

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9.11.2001

I’m sure you remember the tragedy and loss that people simply now only refer to as 9.11.  It definitely brought a whole new perspective to an already seared date for me.  Do you remember where you were, what you were doing, or who you were with?  I do.  I remember being in shock and saying…”we’re at war.”

I don’t know that anyone put it quite as well as Alan Jackson did.  Faith.  Hope.  Love.  God Bless you wherever you are on this September 11, 2014.  May peace shelter your souls, love fill your hearts, and hope dry your tears.