Mother & Child Are Linked At The Cellular Level

For all moms…those who have angel children and those who have living children.  Your children are imprinted in you.  I thought it was beautiful that ALL my children have left blessings in me and each other…

Please enjoy the love and hope of the article below.

Fetal cells persist in mothers, healing them well into old age.

Source: Mother & Child Are Linked At The Cellular Level

6 Months – We’ve made it!

We’re celebrating!  Jonathan has been with us for 6 months!  It’s been a long road, but he is doing so well!  We went to the pediatrician this week and he is now weighing in at 11lb 8.5oz.  Still a little small for his corrected gestational age, but she was happy with his growth in between visits!

He’s helping Dr. McCabe by hanging on to her stethoscope!  Besides growing, Jonathan is now teething!  I wasn’t sure at first, but it’s confirmed by his pediatrician.  He has the “all-clear” to begin eating food as soon as he’s ready.  He’s just about there. She thinks he’ll be ready before his next appointment.  I’m actually really looking forward to making his baby food!

We’ve also found that he just loves elephants.  It’s adorable.  He gets so happy when he sees one.  Here he is talking to one of his best buddies…ha ha ha.

We are blessed.


Diapering Chronicles – Tales of a novice using Cloth Diapers

O.K., O.K.  It has been going over and over in my mind that I need to share my stories of cloth diapering from a novice’s point of view.  So there is the disclaimer.  I am by no means claiming to be an expert or experienced at cloth diapering.  I just thought those of you who are thinking about it may want to hear another’s experiences and point of view.

If you don’t already know, I gave birth to a micro preemie who was 27 weeks gestation, in February.  So my little one was less that 6 pounds when he came home.  His first diaper, that fit a lime sized bum, was too big and folded in half…

Diaper1Obviously, at this point we, were still in the NICU.  I knew in my mind from the beginning of pregnancy we were going to plan on cloth-diapering.  Though I care very much for our earth, my biggest concern was genetic predisposition for very sensitive skin from both sides of the family.  Yes, I was the pain in the petushki (technical term), and everything from seams to the wrong fabric caused my skin to break out in welts, and at times, still do.  Knowing this, I told my husband it was going to be likely that we would have to cloth anyway, so we were planning on it from the get-go.  Then we had a preemie and that solidified it.

So, here is the skinny on what is working for us.  We came home with a baby that was less than 6 pounds.  None of the one-size diapers would fit him.  So, trying to be economical, I started looking for cloth diapers that weren’t as expensive for his first few months.  I should tell you, I did try pre-folds and that was a No Go.  Yikes!  They were way too big for his tiny butt and pinning a  cloth diaper is down right dangerous with a squirmy 5 pound baby, for both me and him!  I don’t recommend trying it unless you’re very brave and the child is comatose…ha ha ha.  I can’t believe that’s all they had back in the day!  Thank goodness for new technology.  Anyway, I digress.  The first thing you need is diapers, right?  I found these IMAGINE all-in-one Newborn cloth diapers that I love.  They are good for 5-13 pounds.  At approximately $10/each, you can’t do better than that.  If you’re not familiar with all-in-one diapers, have a look.  I absolutely love them.  They lesson the work load and it feels like you’re changing a regular old diaper, so it’s less of a learning curve.  I have tried others with velcro and with my little one’s skin, it was a no-go, but the snaps are great.  Another important aspect for me was the manufacturers recommendations for washing are super easy and exactly right.


We have now graduated to the regular one-size diapers.  Again, I bought the IMAGINE product as I had such good luck with them and they are working out great.  I actually do tumble dry on low and they have kept up just fine.  I also already had Rumparooz one-size pocket cloth diaper, bumGenius Freetime, and Charlie Banana 2 in 1 diapers.  Though I use them all and for the most part, like them all, I think the IMAGINEs give you the most bang for your buck!  So there’s the diapers.

My Routines

Well Obviously I use the diapers as I would any other diaper.  I do take a break from the cloth diapers when we are out and about.  It’s too much a pain to carry that many cloth diapers and a wet bag if I am planning to be gone for an extended period of time.  Someone was kind enough to buy us a HUGE box of Huggies, and my son is allergic to them.  He immediately gets red in the creases from the elastic or the cut of the diaper.  OUCH.  So, no Huggies.


As I’m sure you’d imagine, I did my own research prior to coming home from the hospital for my little preemie’s bottom, and the one diaper that seems to get the best reviews both for sensitivity and eco-friendliness are the Bambo Nature diapers.  These are the ones we had purchased prior to Jonathan coming home from the NICU and true to reviews, he has no issue with these diapers.  They’re great!  In a pinch, we are able to use Pampers Sensitive, but I do notice after a while, those can irritate as well.  I’ve yet to find a store that sells the Bambos, so it’s good to know an alternative if you need one.

That said for cleaning the bottom and changing, we also only use water and washcloths.  Yep, you read right.  Washcloths.



You can purchase big package of washcloths at any store at a fairly minimal cost.  This bowl, designated for diapering, is the one I used to use at the hospital for his baths, but any bowl will do.  I wash the washcloths with and when I wash the diapers.  You will note that most cloth diapers say not to use diaper creams with their product, but I always put a little Vaseline on his bottom as a precaution and preventive care for skin.  This has not caused any problems with my diapers.  Think of it this way…Vaseline is a barrier between direct contact with the skin for urine and stool, which can only help babies with sensitive skin.  If absorbed before that, it’s a great lubricant.  To me it’s a win-win all the way around.

When I put the last cloth diaper on my little one, I start the wash of the diapers.  For detergent, I use plain regular TIDE original powder only.  For a list of appropriate diaper washing detergents and comparisons click here.  I do a quick wash on cold with water only and then regular long cycle hot/cold with detergent afterwards.  Then an extra rinse.  When diapers start to get smelly (only about once a month for me), I do a quick wash with water only, then I wash with baking soda 1/2 cup and a Downy ball filled with vinegar.


Extra Rinse.  Finally, wash with detergent followed by an extra rinse.  It has always made the diapers smell great and it’s so easy.  If you’re worried about smells while using cloth diapers, I’ve had great luck with my Dekor Plus hands free diaper pail.


There you have it world! This process works really well for me.  If you’re wondering why I don’t use a diaper service, I’ll toss that in too.  Bringing a preemie home, one can never be sure what products are used through the service.  Also, when you are using a service, you are basically sharing underwear that gets soiled by a bunch of other babies that you don’t know.  I know it goes through the laundry, but for my own peace of mind, I just couldn’t do it.  Not only for potential exposure to another child’s body fluids while mine was so vulnerable, but also because I wasn’t sure what laundering process or detergents would be used and my child, has my skin.  Just food for thought.  I hope this helps people out there thinking about cloth diapering!  Questions and comments are welcome.

Happy Diapering!!!

5 months! ….but it’s really 11 weeks


This little guy is eating, eating eating…which means he’s growing, growing, growing!!!  His colic seems to be slowing improving.  It’s usually a 1 hour window in the evenings instead of 6 hours like it was in the beginning.  I pray none of you having babies in these next few months have to wrestle with it, but if you do….give a shout.  It’s more about trying different things until you find what works, but the emotional toil it takes on Mommy and Daddy is huge.  I didn’t realize how much it was also affecting my spouse until we both had meltdowns.  I’ve decided they make babies cute so that you can’t help but smile and LOVE when you look at them!

There is a lot to love about my child though.  Here are my favorite moments, in no particular order….

I love when he purrs (coos) that little sound while nursing.

I love that cheeky grin he gives me when he can see I’m coming.

I love that he currently behaves at church.

I love how he just looks for the boob in his sleep and sometimes gets a mouthful of shirt…but keeps sucking (ha ha ha)

I love how much joy others get just by knowing his story and seeing him in person.  This makes me feel so blessed and like my child is anointed.  He has given many so much faith…including Mommy & Daddy.

Jonathan has such a personality, it’s so fun and to think he’s not even 3 months old (corrected age) yet!  Thank you all for your outpouring of love and support.  We don’t have official measurements, but he’s more than 10 pounds and is measuring at least 22 inches.  I’ll give you an update after he sees his pediatrician next month.

In the meantime, Jonathan had his first pool party this week, so I thought I’d share a few pictures!



A Celebration and a Baptism


Our story in a nutshell, but it’s so much more.

We had a beautiful celebratory Father’s Day weekend.  A first, for us!  Saturday we had a “Welcome Home” party in lieu of  a shower for our little miracle, our gift from God.  We are overwhelmed by the love and support people continue to give us as well as their presence at these events.  We are so blessed.


Another mommy calming the wee one!


Enjoying the festivities…as long as he’s constantly fed!  It truly amazes me how much this guy eats!  His favorite is still Mommy’s milk!  By the way, breastfeeders to be…I love these bottles!  They’re great for transitioning back and forth from bottle to boob or boob to bottle!

Preparing for his baptism…

Come to me, come. Let the little children come.  Come and receive the kingdom of God.

May all of you find the blessings and promises of God as I have this first Father’s Day weekend.

We’ve made it to 4 months!!!


As of today, Jonathan is officially 4 months old (actually) and 1 month old (corrected gestational age).  He is weighing 7lb, 10oz!!!!  It’s so exciting to see him grow.

He’s slowly but surely getting better with the colic.  As the pediatrician recommended, we started him on probiotics (Gerber Soothe), and we do think it’s helping.  I don’t know what I would do without the baby carrier, rocking chair, and the occasional glass of wine!  Yes, I’m breastfeeding and everyone has said it’s ok!  Don’t pump and dump.  Have an occasional glass of wine.  The most exciting thing lately is that Jonathan has finally figured out how to nurse laying down, so I don’t have to fully wake myself up at night anymore!   I put him in bed with me, put the boob out nearby and he does the rest!  I’m so glad I didn’t give up on it!!!

For now, we are in the midst of planning a Welcome Home party (since we never had a chance to have a shower) and his christening, so more pictures will follow this month.  We are so blessed.  Thank you all for your encouragement and keeping us in your thoughts and prayers!

Blessings Galore!


On our 4th Wedding Anniversary, we celebrate…


…the homecoming of our first born! Welcome Home Baby Jonathan!

It’s been a rocky road to get here, but here we are so very blessed… not only to have each other, but to have the gift of you as well.  We started here…


Then you came 3 months early because Mommy became sick with HELLP Syndrome


and here we are…


Sometimes a picture IS worth more than words…

Happy Easter

Alleluia! Christ is Risen!
Christ us risen, indeed! Alleluia!

What does Easter mean to all of you?  For me, Easter is a time of overcoming…of a battle won…of new life.  These are promises of Easter that many turn to for comfort during difficult times.  I know that I do.


Jonathan’s 1st Easter was spent in the NICU, but we tried to make it celebratory anyway!  He is now 4lb, 7oz!  What a BIG boy!  This is my reminder of the life of Easter.  I am so grateful for all of the love and support from family, friends, and neighbors.  It truly does take a village!


In his Easter bonnet, thanks to SaraAnn’s Homespun What Knots!  Right now, we are working on feeding and weaning his oxygen…that’s all he has to do to get home!  Please send prayers for this little guy!


It’s in the valleys I grow

Sometimes life seems hard to bear,
full of sorrow, trouble and woe.
It’s then I have to remember
that it’s in the valleys I grow

If I always stayed on the mountain top
and never experienced pain,
I would never appreciate God’s love
and would be living in vain

I have so much to learn
and my growth is very slow,
sometimes I need the mountain tops
But it’s in the valleys I grow

I do not always understand,
why things happen as they do.
But I am very sure of one thing,
My Lord will see me through

My little valleys are nothing
when I picture Christ on the cross
He went through the valley of death,
His victory was Satan’s loss.

Forgive me Lord, for complaining
when I’m feeling so very low.
Just give me a gentle reminder
that it’s in the valleys I grow.

continue to strengthen me, Lord.
and use my life each day
to share your love with others
and help them find their way.

Thank you for valleys, Lord
for this one thing I know
the mountain tops are glorious
But it’s in the valleys I grow.

By:Jane Eggleston

I’ve been thinking a lot about valleys.  After all, it is lent.  I am reminded of last years lent as we were going through our fertility treatments and I was asked to sing the Exultet at our Easter Vigil service (as we had no deacon).  I will refer to a post from last year, And the Journey rolls on…  I feel as though I am coming full circle.  Somehow God always makes his presence known in reminders such as these.  So, this Lent we walk through another valley…I grow, my son grows, my husband grows…we grow together.  But boy…do I see the light Easter right around the corner.  The light of Christ.  Thanks be to God.  Rejoice heavenly hosts and choirs of angels, for the victory of our Mighty King.  Darkness has been vanquished (from the Exultet). 

How loved am I?  So, so, so loved.  I can not express the overflowing love I feel for the little one I spend all of my days with..that God has an even greater love for me, for my family just overwhelms and brings me such great joy and security.  It seems Lent is my time to grow, to hang on to the holy, to feel the holy.  I feel it every time I hold my precious little miracle.  Thank you, God.


P.S. I’m 3 pounds!!!

Wow, sometimes the world just spins!

Dear Friends,

I’m sorry it’s been so long since I’ve posted a blog or been on line to check in with all of you.  As many of you know after struggling with infertility for quite some time, we were finally able to achieve pregnancy with IVF.  As happy as we were with the pregnancy, it was difficult for me to write about it, with so many I knew struggling with infertility still.  It still hurts that there are so many great moms and dads out there who are just waiting to fill their arms.

In that light, I thought I should share that my world changed in February.  I got very sick with HELLP syndrome rather quickly and they had to deliver the baby very early.  I was 27weeks 4days.  My baby boy came in to the world weighing 1lb 15oz. by emergent C-section.  I was so sick, I wasn’t able to see him until day 3.


I cried when I finally saw him for the first time.  In fear, in relief, but mostly…in hope.  My beautiful church, CHN, held a Prayer Vigil 2 days after he was born…


I wasn’t able to attend as sick as I was in the hospital, but my mom and sweet husband were able to, and brought back the bulletin so that I could read it.  Our beautiful Rev. Liz wrote a lovely prayer that still brings tears to my eyes:

“Gracious and all knowing God, We pray for your abundant blessings on this little newborn, Jonathan.  We look at this tiny baby and by faith we see:  Soft little ears that will one day hear and receive the message of God’s love and grace.  Precious little fingers that will one day reach out with acts of kindness to the world.  Cute little feet with tiny little toes that will one day bring blessings to the world.  Lord, we also see a tender tiny heart and tender tiny lungs.  We lift him to you, Lord God, and pray that you will sustain him in these very early days.  May this child always have an open heart to you and to your word, and may he grow up sure in the knowledge of your love and presence, all the days of his life.  All these things we pray through our Lord Jesus Christ.  Amen.”

Today, my little preemie is 31 weeks 1day (we go by gestational age when they are preemies).  He is now weighing in at 1050gm or 2.5lb.  Almost all of those tubes you see have been discontinued.  We are working on helping him grow.  I’d like to ask for prayers for continued progress.